Which Witch is Which?

9:30pm, Home

I have feeling not like myself lately. This is evident from my Twitter feed and recent blog posts. Something in me is struggling and I haven’t been able to figure out what it is. I became obsessed with Whole 30 as a way to “fix” myself in the hopes of finding happiness. (spoiler- didn’t work). I’ve been thinking about starting a Twitch stream to connect with more people online, but I truly don’t have a passion for it.

In times of my deepest struggles, I have always found myself craving two things: magic and yoga.

In the last year I lived in Manhattan with an abusive ex boyfriend and seeing a therapist for depression, I was going to yoga 4-6 times a week. The studio was on the top floor of a building in Lincoln Center square. I’d trek through the snow to lay on the ground below the green house windows that covered the ceiling. Being in that small room, watching the snow fall and honing in with my mind & body were the only happy times during the worst year of my life. In college I was a yoga addict, and it helped heal my body when I was recovering from bulimia.

When I was in grade school I was drawn to tarot cards. I once even got detention for bringing them to catholic school >.< The cards have always spoken truth to me, and the witchcraft I practice is a very private matter that I don’t like discussing with people, even Steve. But he’s a saint and doesn’t say anything when I need to smudge the house, line the foundation of our home with sea salt, or keep protective jars at every doorway of the house. Those are mild ones.

Finding a new yoga studio is hard. It’s also a deeply personal and vulnerable practice and you have to feel accepted and home when you finally do pick a place that connects with you.

This morning I went to the cafe for a couple of hours to get work done, then went to the beach specifically to meditate for the first time. It was cold but wonderful. Then I did some errands and food shopping. When 5 o’clock came around I wanted to take a nap but I had promised myself that this was finally the day I would commit to a year membership at my yoga studio. My soul fucking craves it.

So I did. Thanks Ohana Rising School for making me feel at home. <3

And I signed up for their “Full Super Moon Quadruple Gong Healing” workshop this Saturday! 

 

According to NASA:

“The Jan. 31 full moon is special for three reasons: it’s the third in a series of “supermoons,”when the Moon is closer to Earth in its orbit — known as perigee — and about 14 percent brighter than usual. It’s also the second full moon of the month, commonly known as a “blue moon.” The super blue moon will pass through Earth’s shadow to give viewers in the right location a total lunar eclipse. While the Moon is in the Earth’s shadow it will take on a reddish tint, known as a “blood moon.”

When I define the area of witchcraft I practice, I consider myself to be a Moon Witch. I’ve been drawn to the constellations and energy or the moon since childhood. The waxing crescent moon tattoo on my right wrist was a symbol of my craft when I got it in 2014. So I’m VERY excited that my new yoga studio is having a workshop specifically celebrating this event!

I’m about halfway through “Witch: Unleashed. Untamed. Unapologetic.” by Lisa Lister (Amazon Link) I’m really enjoying it so far, especially the history of witchcraft and how strongly she believes that there is no “one” way to practice magic and that you don’t have to fit into any category such as Pagan, Wiccan, or Hedge Witch. I don’t view my craft as a religious thing, which many witches do. I’m just not one of them.

A downside of this book is that it’s heavy on the PUSSY POWER and how all the strength of a witch comes from her womb or vagina. I don’t personally believe that, plus she has so far excluded talking about the views of women or color in witchcraft which bothers me. But otherwise I’m enjoying the rest very much.

In short, I hope you are all finding your way to your own version of happiness. Hang in there. <3

 

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